First, I look.
I see.
Then, I notice. I notice what I'm seeing.
When I notice that I am seeing, I must awaken to which, whose, or what eyes are seeing. Am I seeing with the eyes of judgment? Curiousity? Am I seeing with the eyes of misery, joy, or a specific person? In the moment that I become aware that I am aware of what I am seeing, I have the power of choice. In that same moment, I have chosen the eyes that see.
Who decides what position (read: eyes) should be doing the seeing. Like most, I choose the position when I was about 5 or 6 years old. I made a decision to "never be like that"...now those eyes are mine. I am aware of the eyes that are seeing. The power of choice (see paragraph one) will be hijacked by whatever eyes are doing the seeing.
There is a solution to this vicious cycle: to offer what "I'll never be like" with an open vulnerable heart. If I'm lucky, I'll be sensible enough to see the humour in my choosing. There is an audacity in believing that I can choose from an untainted and pure place - especially given that I am looking through my "special" eyes.
There is hope that I can choose, in the very next moment, something better. The really funny thing is that my choice in the next moment will be hijacked by the guilt and results of the choice that I just made in the last moment.
Then see step one. (Are you laughing yet or are you taking yourself very seriously?)
How long do think this all takes? Years? Weeks? Days? Hours?
It's instantaneous.
Remember to giggle as you practice the following:
Can you honestly look at yourself and say "I am pleasantly pleasing to myself in my own company in the the company of others"?
What are you aware of right now?...snickering and guffaws are allowed.
By Darlene and Chris Hampson
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